After having succeeded in the game of business, I fell into a deep hole of emptiness and meaningless. I’ve found a way to transform my biggest shadows into joy, fulfillment and deep meaning - AND YOU CAN, TOO.
Here’s the journey that could change the way you look at life for good:
My wake up call
One rainy fall morning in October 2019, I woke up in my penthouse in Munich, and as I stared out the window, I noticed that I felt utterly miserable. At this point in my life, I had successfully co-founded and scaled two startups, a Tech SaaS company with 70 employees and 8-figure funding and Europe’s largest winter festival for students.
Despite my outward success, it felt like something was missing. I noticed how tired I felt in my body. The kind of tiredness that a good night's sleep won’t fix. It wasn’t just my body. My soul was tired. All of the drive and motivation that got me to where I was had evaporated, and what was left was emptiness as if all the outward success I had created meant nothing. It was a gnawing feeling, a realization that even with everything I had, I wasn’t truly happy.
I noticed that I had been distracting myself with partying, heavy drinking, unconscious sex, and adrenaline-filled adventures in order to get rid of the growing void that was taking over.
I needed to understand what was going on.
Looking for fulfillment in all the wrong places
In a bold move, I decided to leave and exit the companies. Within six months, even in the midst of COVID, I was free from the burden that had been weighing me down - and felt a huge relief at first. With the businesses behind me, I turned inward, determined to uncover what was really going on with myself. I wanted to discover my true mission, my real purpose in life.
At first, I sought answers through peak experiences—retreats, books, podcasts, constantly chasing the next high. For a while, I felt amazing, riding the wave of excitement and novelty. But soon after, I crashed into the deepest and darkest moments of my life. Despite all the travel and exploration, the emptiness prevailed. I spent a year and a half circling the globe, went to exquisite parties and spent time in the most beautiful locations and while it was fun, that deeper sense of purpose remained elusive and depression hit hard.
I reached rock bottom on a trip with my partner. Paradise beaches felt like prisons. I felt emasculated, purposeless, and completely disconnected. Worries came up as my first investments failed, my relationships were slipping away, and I was questioning whether I was wasting my time because I wasn’t making any difference in the world.
The turning point after rock bottom
I was faced with a decision: Either going back to my old life that wasn’t fulfilling me OR taking the scary decision to jump into the unknown.
I decided for the latter and committed to stepping into my full potential as global thought leader, sherpa for high-achievers, and man of integrity who contributes to the flourishing of a new world that is ruled by peace, harmony and unity - without a clue how to get there.
I realized I had been avoiding the one thing that truly mattered—facing myself. I hadn’t dealt with the underlying insecurities, fears, or anxiety that plagued me. Even though I was technically free from the burdens of responsibility, I still woke up with doubt, self-criticism, and fear. Even though it wasn’t 100% clear to me back then, subconsciously, I knew that if I wanted a fulfilling, purposeful life, I needed to confront these inner demons. I made the decision to finally face myself.
There was no other way than going all-in and getting dedicated 1:1 support because just studying, listening and reading didn’t make the difference anymore. I needed to take action. I committed to be accountable to a world-class coach who had faced a similar journey. So I researched business coaches and came upon a more holistically working, trauma-informed executive coach and former successful founder, with whom I resonated. I leaned all the way into my discomfort and signed up to work with him. It was a high 5-figure investment. I had no idea what to expect, creating an invitation to one of the most significant leaps of faith I have ever taken.
This decision changed everything.
The journey to fulfillment, aliveness, and deep meaning
On my journey, I've worked with some of the world’s best mentors and coaches, from Tony Robbins, to Veit Lindau, Dr. Joe Dispenza, and many more. I’ve studied behavioral science and how to repattern old belief systems; the human nervous system and how to regulate it skillfully; the science behind the developmental stages we live in throughout our lives; and ancient philosophy that helps navigate modern life.
Out of my 5 years of deep work, I’ve created the Expansion State Method™ to support entrepreneurs and HNW/UHNW Individuals in times of transition so that they can cultivate a deep sense of purpose, calmness and inner mastery for their next chapter of meaningful impact.
My biggest revelation was that designing your life with intention and the right guidance is the most effective way to living a life of fulfillment, aliveness, and meaningful impact.
I no longer feel the intense self-doubt or imposter syndrome that led to the never ending pursuit of seeking highs and business opportunities that weren’t truly aligned with my core self. I can shift these states back to power and presence in a matter of minutes.
Where I used to anxiously reach out to women from the need to feel seen, loved and approved, I now experience deep self-respect and confidence instead. Where I once needed alcohol, porn and adrenaline-fuelled adventures to feel alive, I now experience even deeper states of aliveness through the simplicity of what is right in front of me at any given moment.
Where I used to feel afraid of speaking up and fearful of rejection by stating my needs or boundaries, I now speak on stages in front of 500 people and communicate with clear, grounded empathy, resulting in even deeper quality relationships and intimacy in all areas of life.
This process has cultivated a strong backbone, clear values, and a gentle heart. We can be powerful and compassionate, confident and humble, all at once. This is the journey of developing one's inner compass, to become stronger and louder than all the voices on the outside. It is this compass that guides us through any storms in life, reminding us that we always have the answers within ourselves.
If you’d like an extraordinary Sherpa equipped with the most cutting-edge skills to support you in your transition into meaningful aliveness, cultivating your own inner compass and a deep sense of purpose so you can confidently navigate the next-level leadership you are meant to embody, I’d love to receive your application.
My Mission
My mission is to inspire successful men to step into their power as role models and change-makers in this world. To share my tools of self-awareness, a life of purpose and deep connection with others. To support them to create meaningful, positive impact in this world while feeling fulfilled, alive, and truly satisfied.
This is your time to speak to someone who truely understands you. Who has played the power game and has found a way to create connection again.
Let’s talk.